he’s baaaaaack!

sunshine is back in the picture.  it feels different this time.  yes, its about sex, but he admitted that he really wants to settle down and get married.  he is not sure about a family.  2 weekends ago, he came over and we played uno and drank beer and watched tv and just talked and had a lot of fun.  i’m not sure if its going somewhere, but its what i need to get over kevin.  i’ve decided if kevin wants me, he knows how to get in touch with me.  i’m not hanging around waiting forever for his ass.  and i don’t want to change who i am to be with him, and i felt like i was changing too much.  i’m gonna go back and reread my list of "must haves" in my soul mate that i wrote in one of my loa books and check it out, but i think brian (sunshine) has all, and i mean every single one, of the qualities that i am looking for.  which is scary.  but a good scary.

it feels different this time.  it feels like maybe he actually could like me for me, not just for a booty call.  though, the sex is really good and  hot lol.  keep your fingers crossed for me! maybe after 4 years or whatever its been, its time for us.  maybe this is how i was taught patience!! 

oh, and keep fingers crossed for good parent/teacher conferences this week!  tomorrow is bitchy parent day, but the rest of them should be fine. 

hope everyone has a great week!  and, a happy thanksgiving if i don’t pop back on here before thursday!