feelin eh today

today i just have a weird feeling.  not a positive feeling, more negative.  i’m not sure what its about.  it could be about kevin and not seeing him and how he hasn’t been as chatty lately.  or it could just be hormonal.  i’m not sure.  maybe a bit of both.  i just need to keep telling myself that if its meant to be, it will be.  and if its not, then something better is down the road for me.  i must learn patience!

i did have a productive weekend though, despite a small cold.  i did all my laundry yesterday, and went to a craft fair, my mom’s to give her her bday present, and then to a reception for my dad’s photography show at the art center.  all was very nice.  i got all my report cards done this morning, and now i just need to shower and clean up the place and fold some laundry.  and possibly iron.  tonight, megan and i are going to watch the football game at a bar.  there are always guys there to flirt with, so maybe i can get some flirting done tonight.  i’m so shy about approaching people though.  i like when they approach me, but who doesn’t? 

i did go on the dating website last night and messaged a few guys.  heard back from one of them, and he came on really strong.  i’m not sure thats the direction i want to go.  i don’t like when they don’t know me and are calling me pet names and such.  lets do a little gtky stuff and then we can be more flirtatious, jeez! 

well, i told myself i am not texting kevin today.  i don’t want to keep chasing him.  i want him to want me and invite me over and stuff.  i say that all the time and usually, he texts me on the day that i say i’m not texting him first lol.  should i consider that a sign??  🙂 

PATIENCE, PATIENCE, PATIENCE!