discussion

kevin and i had a discussion after we went out to dinner the other night.  he said to me that i didn’t think he was special and accused me of texting and talking to other guys.  i tried to prove i do think he is special and i do like him and he refused to listen. i even threw my phone on him so he could check it out and see that i don’t talk to other guys.  he wouldn’t even look.    i don’t quite remember all of it but i made us discuss it and we worked thru it.  at the end, he said him and his friend have a thing about the word "special."  i don’t know if it is an inside joke or what, but he basically said that if he hadn’t of said that, none of the discussion would have started and i said YES!  i cried, he claimed that the tears were putting pressure on him, etc.  he said he has met up with one other girl from the websites, but he wasn’t interested.  i told him how i felt about him texting other girls while i was there and he said he is not interested in any of the girls he texts, but that he responds because he is a nice guy.  which, he is.  i used my "I" messages and i think he finally understood that i DO like him and i am interested in him and only him.  we both agreed that we are having fun together and enjoy each others company.  he pointed out some things that i have in common with his ex wife that worries him.  and he admitted that he does not trust any one.  so, when i tell him things about me and what i’ve done, he doesn’t believe me.  i know its something we will work thru and its his issues and i need to be patient, but it is tough. 

after all that, i went to bed and he came in a bit later.  he had texted me some cute pics of himself from the living room lol.  when he came in they came thru on my phone.  we had some good sex and then we were talking a bit.  i asked him if he would be opposed to a weekend trip with me and he said he thought he was going to atlantic city with me.  i wasn’t aware that he was actually going.  but, i’m glad that he wants to.  so we talked about that for a bit.  i really, really, really, really, hope he does come!  i think it would be awesome!  the only part i worry about is him meeting my ENTIRE family.  but, i mentioned it to him and he didnt’ seem too concerned. 

so, it was a rough few minutes during our discussion, but the  night ended well.  i’m glad we got thru our first hurdle, even if it was a little one!