4th marriage proposal lol

last night was amazing!  dinner turned out sooooo yummy!  i actually did NOT overcook the chicken, so it was nice and juicy.  the 3 cheese penne was delish, though the sides burned in the crock-pot.  no biggie, i just scooped out the middle and took that to his house.  the bag of steamfresh broccoli was disappointing.  it was delicious, but there was a lot less broccoli in the bag than i thought 🙁  but, he enjoyed everything and ate ALL of the pasta!  there was a ton!  after dinner we sat on the couch and talked for a long time while watching the football game.  he was venting about his ex and showing me the some of the texts they were exchanging.  it was interesting to see/read her view points on him.  she wrote to him that he views his children as possessions (because he wants 50-50 custody), and that he is more interested in his hobbies than in getting to actually know their interests.  sounds a lot like how my dad was when we were little.  he would take us to sporting events and stuff that he enjoyed, but never really did much else with us.  even when we were at his house, he would feed us and we would do homework while he would work on his "hobby of the month."  anyway…

after he was done venting, we were semi-cuddling on the couch.  i was rubbing his head and he had his arm draped across my legs.  every once in a while, he would lean back on me and just look up at me and smile.  he is so sweet and adorable!  i was telling him about my brothers wedding and how my dad paid for a hotel room for me for the wedding weekend.  the wedding is right outside atlantic city, so i mentioned that to him.  i actually semi-invited him to come up.  i explained how i wasn’t a +1 for the wedding, but i was for the rehearsal dinner (great communication between the families, by the way!) and that after the dinner, i wanted to go into atlantic city to gamble.  so i told him he was welcome to come up and we could do some gambling while i was not needed for wedding festivities.  he was thinking about it and agreed that would be cool, but he would have to figure out what to do with the kids since friday night is one of his nights with them.  i’ll bring it up again, closer to the wedding, to see what he thinks.  even if he can’t go, its fine.  i’ll just go lay on the beach instead of gamble!

during all of this wedding talk, i mentioned that i want to semi-elope.  i want to have a small ceremony, with only the people that really mean something to me.  it could be in a church, or outside or where ever.  as i was explaining how it didnt’ really matter where the ceremony was, he said to me "let’s just get married" and i THOUGHT he said, "its all about the marriage" thinking that he meant that the actual marriage is more important than the festivities surrounding it.  so i said "yeah…wait, what??" and he repeated himself.  i retorted that he wasn’t even divorced yet and he said i was probably just saying that so i could say no and look like i was trying to avoid hurting his feelings (or something along those lines) and i said, no that is not true.  we then left that topic quickly lol.  so, i don’t know if he was joking (i have a feeling he was) or if its something he thought about.  he did mention that i still had my profile up on the site we met (as does he, i believe), so i mentioned that i hadn’t really been on to disable it. 

anyway, we went to bed and he was holding my  hand and rubbing my back and just being a sweetheart.  same thing when we were waking up this morning.  when we were getting ready to leave this morning, he turned to me and said "we haven’t had sex in a while" and i laughed and said, "yeah, we should do that soon."  i would have last night but that time of the month just happened to start yesterday afternoon.  lovely.  i was hoping it would hold out, but no such luck.  ah, well, next time! 

when i got home, i disabled my profile.  i didn’t delete it completely yet, but i want to wait until the next time i hang out with him to see if he says something about it.  maybe that will show him how serious i am about caring about him.

he is so wonderful.  i can’t believe how lucky i got.  the universe knew what it was doing all along 🙂