last night and help??

last night kevin needed to get the subwoofer in his car hooked back up so i met him up at the best buy near his house.  i hung around a few minutes while he and the guy made sure everything was working.  then, we went back to his house and poured some wine, and hopped right back in his car so he could go mail some paperwork at his work.  so, i got to see his work 🙂  when we headed home, he turned to me and said "our first public outing together"  so cute! 

i had 3 items on my agenda for the night:  1.  ask him about going to a football game, 2.  ask him about going to church, 3.  ask him about coming down to my place. 

1.  ask him about going to a football game

this one was easy.  as we were turning into his work, i asked him if my friend could get us tickets, would he like to go.  and he said "yeah, i’d like that!"  so we chatted about that a bit and i texted my friend and asked her what a good game would be for us to attend.  so that was easy!

2. ask him about going to church

this was pretty easy to bring up as well.  we passed the church on the way home from his work and he said "there’s the church" lol.  so i asked when we were going.  he looked surprised and asked me when do i have a sunday free.  i said most of my sundays are free.  so we are going on sunday!  a REAL public outing lol

3.  ask him about coming down to my place

again, pretty easy to bring into conversation.  i mentioned all the restaurant gift cards i had from my kids and said we needed to use them.  he agreed to help spend them 🙂  but, i didn’t say anything about him coming down to me.  so, later i said i’d like him to come down and he said he would like that but it would end up being later than our usual time.  we also discussed what time he would have to leave in the morning.  so, the seeds are planted.  now i just need to clean the house!

it was a good/interesting night overall.  i did tell him that i’m supposed to meet someone for drinks on friday.  he said that hurt him and i pointed out that he is still talking to girls.  i told him that i don’t want to go on this date and if he told me not to, i wouldn’t go.  so that started a whole conversation about how he wants someone that wants only him.  i told him that i think about him all the time and i reminded him that i really like him i will be patient and wait for him but i don’t want to wait 7 years.  i don’t know why i picked 7, just a random number.  he said he knows its been a year (since his separation) but he only moved out in february so its been a short year and he just is not ready yet.  i told him that i completely understand.  THEN he goes and tells me he is thinking about cancelling his accounts with all the dating sites he is on.

UGH!!

he and i had that conversation a few weeks ago.  i mentioned to him that i wanted to cancel my account and thats when he told me he is still talking to other girls on the sites.  soooooo does this mean that he is done talking to the other girls??  does he want to just concentrate on me??  i didn’t ask him that.  it wasn’t the right time. but, if thats what it means, yay! 

however, after some adult time in bed, we were laying there talking (of course since thats what we both do best), and we talked more about his church and i said again, i don’t want to go on this date on friday.  i asked him how would he feel as a guy if i cancelled.  he said he would be upset.  we chatted a little more about what happened with his ex and stuff.  right before he fell asleep, he asked me how i felt if he told me he met someone next week that he really liked.  that hurt and i told him that i would be hurt.  he asked if i would still talk to him.  (earlier in the night he asked how i could be friends with some of my exs and i explained that we are cordial and acquaitences but not necessarily friends) i told him i would talk to him as much as i talked to any of my exs.  not the best way to go to sleep, but i think its good to get our feelings out on the table.

oh, and we actually talked about the kids.  he said he wanted someone that would enjoy being with his kids and be a good step mom to them.  so i told him how i love playing with kids, making cookies, playing with play dough, etc.  he said i would love them and i said bring them on over!  so, i think that might happen soon.  🙂

OMG!!!!!!!!  we have been texting back and forth all morning. i told him when i got home and thanks for a wonderful night, and i was excited about sunday.  he wrote back and said he always enjoys spending time with me and he was looking forward to it as well.  then he texted me a while later asking about sex with him, was the first time the best?  i told him it was good but it gets better every time.  then he JUST texted me and asked how i felt about church, lunch, and pool time on sunday!!!!!!!!!!  major public outing!!!!!!!!!!  i told him it sounded like a perfect sunday. 

SO EXCITED!!!  I WANT TO RUN AROUND MY HOUSE LIKE A 5 YEAR OLD ON CHRISTMAS MORNING!

life is good  🙂