our status

after a bottle of wine at evelyn’s house tuesday night, she encouraged me to have at least one talk with kevin.  one was about when we would become facebook friends, and the other is where we are with our relationship–if we are seeing other people.  i ended up having both last night.  the facebook talk went pretty smooth.  he was showing me some of the apps on his ipod touch and showed me the facebook app.  so, i asked when we were gonna become facebook friends.  he tried to add me right then and there, but i must have everything blocked because we couldn’t find me!  so, i told him i would add him today.  i knew i had to go home and delete some stuff before i added him.  so, that is done and i’m just waiting to get up the nerve to do it!

then, after wine and a movie (valentine’s day–very cute!), we went to bed.  i stayed the night this time.  i somehow got up the nerve to ask him (i can’t even remember how) and found out he is talking to other people, but he has not gone out with them.  he says he is not ready to be dating and really shouldn’t be at this point.  he said he is still really bitter towards his ex.  which, i can totally understand.  i told him that there was no one else, and i wasn’t really interested in anyone else, but i was comfortable with where we are at–hanging out and relaxing and sex.  i also made it clear that i like him and i think that he is worth waiting for.  i also told him that he has so many qualities that i’m looking for.  he seemed to appreciate that.  then we started fooling around.  that went ok.  he lost it after a bit, and kept apologizing, but i told him it happens and i wasn’t mad.  he then rolled over and was leaning on his elbow looking at me and asked what i was thinking.  i told him i was thinking that he is pretty hot 🙂  when we were falling asleep, he was holding my hand and has his feet entangled with mine.  sleep eluded me though.  i had a lot on my mind–i was worried that i scared him, i was worried that i’d oversleep, i was hot, and i was uncomfortable.  i slept here and there but it was not restful.  when i got up (before him), i was getting dressed and he was watching me.  i went and got my stuff, came back to his room and sat on the bed with him.  i gently rubbed his head and kissed him and said thank you, go back to sleep 🙂  i let myself out and drove home.  on the way home, i was trying to think of what to say when i texted him (i always text him when i get home).  what i came up with was something along the lines of "i’m home 🙂  thanks for another great night.  sorry if i scared you lol.  i’m very comfy with our situation and am not really not ready for anything more than hanging out right now.  hope thats still cool with you 🙂  have a wonderful day!"  he responded with "thank you!  didn’t scare me lol.  hope you have a great day too"

so, i think we are ok 🙂  the universe is still trying to teach me patience and i think i can be patient for this one 🙂  however, if the universe does not see kids with him in my future, i want to know!  i’m gonna keep flirting and keep my eyes open, but not necessarily be an active dater.