absolutely ;)

the universe made my decision for me. 

thats what my friend becky said about the whole situation.  the universe is allowing me to focus all of my energy on kevin now that gene is out of the picture.

and its WORKING!

yesterday was my bar’s annual anniversary party.  i had been looking forward to having a few drinks and talking about what happened on saturday with my friend megan.  so, needless to say, i got tipsy pretty quickly.  i was texing with kevin a bunch and being all flirty and he responded positively haha 🙂  we left after a while, and i came back home and then went out again with my friend natalie.  while we were out, i got a weird text from a number i don’t know.  turns out it was kevin trying to send me a pic from his new itouch.  i couldn’t open it (damn me not having a smart phone!), so i forwarded it to natalie (who has an iphone) and she opened it and sent it back to me.  since i had been drinking all day (but not drunk, i timed it well), i was feeling more relaxed and less inhibited so i responded "yum baby!  can i nibble on you?  :)"  as soon as i sent it, i wanted to thunk my head on the bar.  i thought it was too forward and if he didn’t like me as much as i liked him, it might sound as if i was coming off too strong.  i didn’t hear back from him that night.  so, today when i got to work, i sent him a (sober) response and explained how i had to send it to a friend and i was keeping my fingers crossed that it was appropriate and that it was a delicious pic.  he "lol" a response (he was at work too, of course).  and i thought that was the end of it.  and i was wondering if i would hear from him again today.

well, lo and behold, while driving to petsmart and, coincidentally, thinking of kevin, i get a response from his itouch (him actually, of course, but from the itouch number), and it said "lol absolutely."  it took me a second to realize that he was responding to my nibble comment.  well, that just made me so happy! he does like me!  i’m not sure how much, but its got to be a decent amount if he wrote absolutely, right??? 

sigh.

so happy 🙂

i can’t wait to see him this week.  i’m still being patient and waiting for moments to present themselves for moving this relationship forward.  i already refer to him as my boyfriend on rare occasions.  most of the time, i refer to him as the guy i’m dating or the HOTTTTT guy i’m dating, lol.  lord i could love this man!  i think part of me already does 🙂