frustated

First off, I hope everyone had a happy Mother’s Day.  Mine was ok.  I didn’t get to sleep in like I wanted too.  But Aimee woke me up.  She made me a bowl of cereal.  AWW.  Then I got up and fixed the kids breakfast.  After Chris woke up, we went to my aunt’s house for a little bit.  Then we went over to Chris’ friend’s parents house.  The kids got to swim, play on a new playground, etc.   Then we came home, finished watching "Over my dead body".  Then I went to bed early.

One day, I will learn to quit worrying about so much stuff.  I will become those people that have a stress free life.  One that doesn’t have a care in the world.  But sometimes it is really hard when i am the one that does everything.  The bills, the house, the cooking, etc.  Money right now is what I worry about more then anything. 

I am currently looking for job number 2 or a better job.  My best friend is redoing my resume hoping she can help me land an interview.  That is what seems to be happening.  I keep applying for jobs but seem to get looked over.  It does get frustating.  

We barely make it as it is.  So we with me getting a second job or a better job….we would be able to do more then just make it.  I have an Ford F250.  I am gonna have to park it because we can’t afforded the gas.   So here I have a truck that I love more then anything and I have to park in the driveway and drive something I really don’t want too.  No I’m not crying about that.  But what is the point of having the truck you always wanted and now have to park it.   I know I know….blah blah blah.  I realize we have to do what we have to do to make things work.   But I feel like if that is the case….why not just sell it?   I doubt gas prices are gonna get any better….do you?

What I hate about everything is that there is so much that needs to be done and no matter how hard to try to get things done….money always stops us.   There is no doubt in my mind…that I will be losing it soon if something isn’t done. 

I just want to be able to get a phone call from one of this places that I have applied for and get a different job.  I am so unhappy with where I work and not to mention, I want to be happy with the way I live.!!!!!