maybe it is just a dream
You know people keep asking me what I have decided about moving and what not. I keep saying that yes I am gonna move. But you know everyday that passes…I’m not one step closer. I really wanted to leave after Aimee got out of school. That is coming up really soon. Chris hasn’t bothered in looking for jobs. I am looking up places to live but not having any luck. I mean I am finding ones but you know what factor always happens. I feel like I have been a huge pain on a friend of mine. She lives up there. I have emailed a toyota place for Chris. I finally got an email back but Chris didn’t sound so excited about it. Kayla is all excited about moving. So am I. But right now I feel like I am living in a fastasy world. My friend told me just to move up there and live in a rental house. That is fine but I can’t find any. I am find with that though. i would love to live in a rental and then whatever. But I need to find one of those!!
At first I thought I was just kidding about moving. But I’m really not. I want out of Florida. There is so much drama and crap here. My family hasn’t been getting a long AT ALL!!! Things between my niece and sister are just stupid. Let my niece be. If she doesn’t want things to work with her mom then let it be. Living here is getting way to costly. Don’t get me wrong, everywhere you live things are on the rise but living here wasn’t cheap to begin with. I know people say we are making it. yes but who honestly wants to just make it. I want to make it and be happy. **I am happy but I want to be able to go where I need to go and not be afraid to buy things***
I try to put on a happy face but it doesn’t always work. Inside, i am screaming. I want to run. Chris doesn’t know all this. He probably will now. But I do just want to run. Right now I am home with the kids. Aimee was sick all night. I am going crazy right now. She is starting to feel better so that means she is being a pain. William is being a pain because he is just a pain with me.
Maybe if I wish on a star something magical will happen for me!!!!!
