Maybe we don’t belong together

Maybe Chris and I just don’t belong together anymore.  That is killing me to write.  But he is mad at me right now and this time I didn’t do anything.  I told him what his good friend is saying about him and I’m getting punished for it. 

Over the last couple of days I have been telling him that I am so tired of being alone.  And that I’m tired of his drinking and going to his buddies house all the time.  I mean he asks me all the time why his son doesn’t talk to him.  Well when he never sees you what to do you think?  But last night, he called to tell me his buddy Juan was coming over and he was drunk from hell.  Then he calls me again and tells me that he is going to follow Juan home and then be home.  Then I get another call and he is telling me they are both stuck in the mud.  Well I call his buddy about coming to pull him out.  No answer.  So Chris calls me again and tells me his other buddy is coming.  So I call his friend back.  Well I tell him what happens and that gets him started on Chris being a family man.  He is telling me he is tired of seeing Chris not spend time with his family.  He is acting like he doesn’t want to come home.  Etc Etc.  So I am finally telling someone how I truly feel.  Then Chris calls me and I was telling what we were talking about.  Hoping he would wake up.

Well I’m wrong.  He is like I’m not in high school anymore.  Blah Blah Blah.  So he gets home last night, slams the bed room door, takes a shower, then slams our bedroom door again and then goes on the couch.  That is where he slept.  So I didn’t sleep last night.  Then his morning he leaves without giving me a kiss.  Saying I will be home after work.

Why is he mad at me?  What did I do?  Why am I the one getting punished for this?  Why am I getting treated like it is my fault we want you home more?  It’s not fair!  I’m not a bad person. 

And on top of that, after getting some notes yesterday…..maybe I am pregnant.  I am acting like it again.  But my tubes are tired.  This sucks!