Reflections

Another year has come and gone. On a positive note, it brought me to the half century mark. While I don’t always relish the thought of getting older, I do believe that being a half century is pretty cool. I wish I had been able to follow through with plans to celebrate with friends in Mexico, but emergency surgery took precedence. This year we’ll celebrate in Mexico, and pretend it’s the real thing. I’m very ok with that, and it’s something I’m looking forward to possibly even more so than last year. Cancun here we come.

Last year held a few ups and downs in my personal life, including my two boys. One up, one down. My hope for 2005 is that Jarad continues on the road to success, and Justin finds his way to that road, from all the misleading, narrow and dead end paths he has followed up to this point. A mother’s love perseveres no matter the obstacles.

I took on a huge responsibility, being power of attorney and caretaker for my uncle. I do the best I can and he is very appreciative. I wish I had had the opportunity to do something like this for my dad during his illness. It certainly would have brought us closer together.

I lost the most important woman in my life . . . . . sweet, wonderful Maggie. And a week later, I lost a long time friend to a motorcycle accident. Life . . . . why does it have to be so fragile? Why does the loss of loved ones have to create such a void in our lives? I don’t agree with this part of the Master plan. Wouldn’t it be easier to lose a loved one, if when the time came, they just . . . . walked towards the light? Choirs of Angels singing, crowds of family and friends who had gone before them, waiting with open arms?

About 3 months into 2004, I started working 12-hour days and nights. This has proven to be harder than I thought, but I’m determined to do what it takes. I have worked there much too long to throw in the towel at this point. I have a long term goal.

So here’s to 2005. Let it be a year filled with happiness for each one of us.