02/22/2011

 I’ve been yelled at for not updating.  

I’d come up with an excuse but there’s multiple reasons, so I’ll just say that it’s all my fault, and I’m to blame. ::nods::

So, what’s been happening in my world?

Court and I have been fighting on and off… I’d get mad enough to end it, say it’s through, and he’d talk (brow-beat) me into giving it another chance.  I think with the last fight he realized I was completely serious and we’ve both been working to fixing our relationship — which means, we’re trying to communicate more, and trying to do more give and take than we’ve been previously willing to.  This has had some successes and some failures, and some misunderstandings which have been really bad.  I wanted to do something big for V-day, his birthday, and our anniversary, which are all within a month to each other.  He really doesn’t like doing things… that’s one of the bigger spots of contention that we have… I like staying at home but want to go out once in a while to do something, to celebrate being here, y’know? And he really doesn’t want to go out of the house if he doesn’t have to.  I found a beautiful B&B that’s bout twenty minutes from home – far enough away for me, close enough for him, and when I suggested us going to spend a weekend there, he told me "no."  At first he didn’t tell me why he said no, but after I badgered him enough and got really upset, he finally explained it all.  He just… doesn’t like leaving. ::sighs:: So I suggested to Bonnie that she come down to visit and we’d go to the B&B… she got her ticket and whatnot, and I’m renting the B&B for us.  It’s right on the sound, with a private beach, a rowboat and a kayak that you can go out on the sound on, a hammock, yeaaah… and did I mention that it’s a private cabin?  Bon and I are going to have a good weekend… we figure we’ll bring our artsy stuff… she’s bringing her sketchbook, and I’m going to bring one too, as well as my writing and my chain maile, and we’re going to relax and just… let go.  I need to let go and relax.  

That goes into the next part of what’s been going on… I’ve been working 6 days a week, with the 6th being a long day… 10+ hours.  At least one week out of two was a 16 hour day.  See… it started out small.  Tammy quit so we were down a person.  So I took an extra day to come in and help finish everything up.  Then B started saying she needed to do taxes and the like… and has been milking that excuse as a reason why she couldn’t help us.  M’s family went through some hard times, so she was out off and on for about two, three weeks.  Which left Kristal and I to do all the audits.  We kept up for a week or two, and then, at the end of January, the boss said that he doesn’t like how the slots work sheet is reporting, and wanted us to redo it.  So, I spent two days getting the worksheet fixed, and then a week and a half redoing all of January.  So, now, with B FINALLY (after being told by the bosses she has no choice) working on the audits, she gets into a fight with M and ends up fucking over the TRK audit… it takes a week for that to be sorted out, and now we’re a week behind on all the audits and I’ve been working over 55 hours a week and there’s at least two or so weeks left of that.  ::twitches:: Yeah, it’s a bitch.  But it’s going to be good. The pay is good, at least.

So yeah.  

Oh! I got a new tat this weekend.  Maili and I went and finally got our Hawaiian tattoos… she got her maile lei, and I got my pikaki lei.  I’ll have to take pictures of the tattoos soon.  

There’s so many things going through my head, and so few things… at home I’m antsy, I want to go back to work toget more work done, and at work, I’m unable to get as much done as I want.  It’s just… yeah.  I went to bed early last night… like 7pm or so early.  It was nice getting enough sleep and waking up when my body said it was time to wake up as opposed to when the alarm clock says it’s time… granted, the whole not having a chance to do anything with my family is kind of ‘meh’ but I haven’t been in the mood to really do anything with the family. Sad, no? I just need some away time, which is why I’m excited about the weekend with Bon. 

Whee.