my fiance is dating some guy…..retort by myself

Wait a tic!…The old wheels don’t always spin as fast as they should , but they still spin none the less.

I take my sweet ass time getting around to things?…That’s bullshit !

So your ready to start to look at me as a possible love intrest . Well I guess I should be flattered and judging by your attitude twords me you are none too happy about the fact that I’m not showing the intrest back . The fact of the matter is that I’ve shown it , hell I flashed it in fucking neon in front of you , but nope…you liked the guy who knocked you up and left you alone in the fucking hospital when you had the miscarriage…no …thats wrong…you weren’t alone…I was there…As a matter of fact I was there when I told you about 4 months earlier that the guy was an asshole …Actually at the time I was only saying it , to try to get into your pants, but I still said it . I was also there when you met your last hero …thats right …the hero that is now living in florida and hasn’t called his daughter in the last 6 months …Remember him?…I do …I hated him and remeber telling you that I didn;t trust the fat piece of shit as far as i could throw him…Go figure I was right ….Again. That was it you know?…thats when I turned off the neon, turned it off and tossed the sign in the trash…Thats when I gave up on you.

So now your ready for me …well…fuck you , fuck you and your so called love for me. Why do I take my sweet ass time to getting around to you ? Simple …I’m going off history and thats all we really are …a completly fucked up history filled with memories of me being rejected by you. A fucking history of me being your fucking lap dog …all excited and tail just a waggin just happier than a pig in shit that your even looking in my direction…guess what bitch…puppies grow up …and some fucking puppies grow into mean ass dogs that bite….you don’t pet those ones, let alone try to get them to sit in your fucking lap

BOW FUCKING WOW!

Who the fuck do you think you are ? Calling me at 4 in the fucking morning crying to me about how you love me and all that blah blah blah blah …you called from your boyfriends apartment….you go to him, fuck him and call me to fucking cry …FUCK YOU …your a big girl , clean up your own fucking life…knowone is doing anything to you or is  against you ," your life is a direct reflection of the way you live it " ( I siad that to her ) " I was never good enough for you before, why am I good enough now? " ( said that too ) her reply to it was that she had finnaly realized what she had sitting in front of her…." Look around , I’m not sitting in front of you . "  ( yeah ….I said that to ) she hung up.

Like I said …sometimes the wheels don’t spin that fast , but sooner or later I catch on .

Everyone else got it , they all understood when I told them that all thier shit is getting to be too much. I spent the weekend explaining to my friends and family that when they tell me about the crap thats been upsetting them , I get upset…I know they are just venting , but thier problems become my problems and I just need a few weeks drama free. They all got it , my best friend was way bummed out that he didn’t notice that all he’s been doing is complaining to me . Well they didn’t   " all "   get it , the early wake up call proved that. To my credit, I never swore to her or yelled , I was calm and rational…as rational as you can be at 4am at least. maybe when I told her earlier in the day that our friendship can;t be based on me being her shoulder to cry on , we have to have something else to talk about besides her life and how shitty it is , she thought I meant  call me at 4am drunk and pissing about being in love with me. Oh ! and did I mention that she told me that while the newest douchbag was fucking her she was thinking about me …Nice ….She pictures me while she fucks an unemployed biker ( doesn;t own a bike though, but he dresses the part ) …Fucking Nice to be thought of at least .

Fuck her, fuck her problems, fuck me for being stupid enough for letting her drag her shit into my life. fuck me for knowing that I’ll pick up the phone in a few weeks and not hang up when she calls.