Get out of bed…lazy head.

I’m laying in bed….trying to decide if I’m going to pass out tonight or just go out with Shelly…Shell isnt home yet.

Karen wants to go out! ….Karen is DRIVING ME NUTS! She’s such a picker! like EVERYTHING I do on the plane drives her nuts…its like GET A LIFE! Also when I go out with Karen she gives off this "Dont come near me vibe" and we absolutly NEVER get aproached by guys. So I dont really wanna go out with Shell.

Today was a CRAZY long day….13.5 hours. UGh….but no more ughing because I’m off for 9 days!

Mom and I got in a lil tif I refuse to let her make me feel bad about myself and what I WANT…finally I feel free. I am financially free from her! AND paying her back because she’s using my flight benifits like crazy.

So …last night I was so overwhelmed by missing Doug that I cried…I mentioned this to Doug and his response was "dang woman, I miss you too but no one died" ….ouch…make me feel stupid….he recovered a bit by saying "I’m not saying its anything bad…you are sensitive"

I love Doug…but I’m wondering if I want someone who misses me a little more when I am gone….or is that crazy to ask? I dont know…just something to sleep on.

I’m drinking some wine…and then maybe passing out….or maybe shell will get home and tell me to get out of bed!