full of expectations

the thoughts about you were wonderful, the possibilities, the wonder, the excitement. the fact that you know nothing but what i have told you. the fact that you could never prove me wrong or know how weak i was for so long in so many different circumstances. i could become what i wanted to be, who i wanted to be and have control over what happens.
people ask me about you and i find i dont have much to say and im not sure if it is because i dont know too much or because i just dont care. the way you feel, the way you see me is what i have wanted for a long time. but i am afraid you are not what i want, or what i need. i dont know if that is because i have always wanted to remain closed or because there is something missing here.
in the mean time would it be okay to live with someone i can live with and not worry about the someone i cant live without?