opposite equations

i know that things arent how i planned for them to be going. i hadnt planned on waiting again, longing for people i cant seem to have. so i try to move myself on to more things that just dont seem to work out and i feel so drained from caring so much about everything. being confused is the worst state i can think of, especially when i can never get straight answers, or much of an answer at all, but im still supposed to be waiting, and caring because thats how its left. but it was supposed to be picked back up sooner, i must have been forgotten.
worse than feeling lonely is to know that you must have been forgotten.
the little things always seem to keep me holding on. but really, i havent found much else to do.
i’m not so bad, i believe you would do the same thing too. im not trying to move on, just trying to live without you.
again.

and the third time will be the last.