Who thought this was a good idea??

A little less than 2 months until the wedding and I have a constant knot of anxiety in my stomach at all times. I am now down to 113lb from 121lb, can hardly sleep and don’t have much of an appetite.

We still have to book caterer, flowers, DJ, officiant, I need to find someone to do hair/makeup, we need to buy our plane tickets, and we have to pay about $10k more or more.

I thought having a destination wedding in Hawaii would mean things would be super easy  because it would all be done for us..I was completely wrong. We’ve had to do everything and it’s worse because we can’t meet any vendors face to face. 

I feel like I am going to scream and cry and kick my feet on the inside, but on the outside I am calm and composed. 

The worst part about the whole wedding is all the drama going on with his family.