Feeling?

What is this thing called feeling? How is it experienced? Why can I not feel? How do I experience it?

Is it experienced through a tear? Warm in its creation, cold in its short lived delivery?

Is it the rising tide and rumbling quake, quietly pulsating through my soul screaming to escape this vessel that is my body?

Is it the relief offered by the emotional band-aid that is laughter, with its ability to lift you from sadness and the lowest of lows, if only for a minute?

Or is this numbness and lack of feeling THE ultimate feeling? My inability to cry and truely feel pain in painful situations what feeling is all about? A sense of loss, lack of connection, missing out?

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