Getting that itch
…to move back to Austin. I’ve been in San Marcos for 10 months now, and I’ll be here for 8-9 more. I love my family and I love living with them. But it’s so damn hard not having my own place. Part of it is the fact that I’m so far away. When I stay In San Marcos, my commute to work can be anywhere from 1 to 2 hours one way. That makes for a very long day. On top of that I have no real personal space. Don’t get me wrong – I’m very lucky to have my own room and pretty much a run of the top floor most of the time. But I can never come home and just lounge. Even though it’s my family’s house, I still feel like a guest, since I’ve lived on my own before. And on top of that, Travis moved back in with his parents too. So after the end of this month, when my house-sitting gig is up, we have nowhere to be alone. And I don’t even mean that necessarily in a sexual sense, just in general a place we can just relax, the two of us.
I guess I’ve just been nomadic for too damn long lol. After thinking about it, when I lived up north of Austin, I was never home – I was always at D’s house or in San Marcos. I never really used that house as a "home-base." Plus, I had two roommates, so it was never really "my" space. So, that being the case, the last time I really had a place to call "home" was back in 2007. When I was with my ex, Jesse. So by the time I move into my own place again, it will have been almost 4 years of being here and there.
I suppose since I can see the light at the end of the tunnel, it makes me that much more anxious :).
Regardless, I am fixing the situation that I helped create. I was not responsible with my money when I was with Jesse, and am in debt because of it. Recently, I used a credit card for a couple of things when I really shouldn’t’ have, so I suppose I still have a bit of trouble with spending today. But I’m getting better. And I have a plan. By the end of November, I should be completely paid off. No credit cards, no debt to my parents, just school loans (which I don’t really count). I just have to stick it out until then. And of course, I can do that. It just helps to get my frustrations and exhausted-ness out sometimes I suppose. 🙂
But. Today and yesterday I have been in a great mood. I was starting to get in a funk and decided to snap out of it. And it worked. It’s sunny outside, I’m seeing my baby tonight, and I’m alive and kickin’ :). Life’s pretty good right now.