A mixed bag of emotions…

So, at this present moment my head, heart and soul are all over the place.

I’m so pissed and I dunno why. Well, thats a lie, I do but im not sure whats annoying me more? My hair is being crap and seems to be falling out, I dunno wat to do with myself anymore – I have so much shit in England that I ran away from and people that need me as well and I decided to run away from everyone within 10 weeks. I have so much stuff 2 pay for as well atm and i’m also annoyed coz all my clothes got mashed in the washing machine so are even more dirty than when I put them in orignally!!

Also, my friends mum passed away the other week and we were like each other’s shoulder and she’s only had a few ppl to speak with… She messaged me on facebook and said that she really misses me and our chats and that just wants me to get back on the plane and go home. But then, i’d be doing what I always do, not giving myself any time or space and doing what I want. Thats gone on for 20 years so I thought that i’d have a year to myself and do MY own thing. But it just seems like when I come back, i’ll be swamped with what ppl need and want. Oh well.

I dunno what I wanna do anymore…. I suppose i’ll just ride the storm out and see what happens…