No regrets

I’ve decided that this years motto is ‘No regrets’. Whatever i do, there is no point regretting it as its in the past. Mistakes can be altered if need be but I shall have no regrets.
Stu slept in the same bed as me last night. We fell asleep and I woke to him nuzzling and kissing my neck. this turned me on massively, so I turned around and one thing led to another. We didnt go the whole way, I just "relieved" him and then expected it back. But No. he obviosuly went into his ‘meh’ phase and rolled over and went to sleep. I was so annoyed but half of me expected it.

In the moning, he was fine with me and has been this evening. Now i’m probably gunna sound really shallow and slaggish but I enjoy wats happenin. Ive come to the conclusion I no longer want a relationship with him. Im so excited about travelling that i really cant be bothered with the hassle, but Im getting closeness and passion at the same time. If it wasnt with him, then i’d look for the same thing elsewhere. I think its a turn on as well. But hey, its me. i know its wrong but hopefully that perfect person is waiting for me out there!

I am soooooooo excited about travellin as well now! Ive only got 9 weeks at work which is Great. The bitch of a boss is really doing my nut in at the moment so thats a bonus. Playing everyone off with each other which could lead in catastrophie!

My scan is a week today. The letter came thru today and its 830am next thursday. So nervous now! But it’ll be fine!

Thats it really, haven’t heard any new tunes that get me going either which is strange!