Its been So long

Sorry! Its been ages since I last wrote, just been extremely busy, work, social life and meh! But nothings changed – I hate work even more, hate Plymouth even more and hate myself even more, but hey, hopefully things will change!

So Im thinkin of getting my tongue even more but dunno… I say stuff and hardly follow it thru! OOOH! 4got to mention, going to London 2moro and have a date! Just a randomer on some chat site and we’ve been msnin 4 ages! He’s sweet – prefers hugs and cuddles to sex which is excellent. He’s taking me out for dinner coz we both feel a bit uneasy bout meeting which is good – hopefully it’l be good – not perfect tho coz it wud just be my luck 2 get stuck with someone so great, hundreds and hundreds of miles away.

So Stu is downstairs now with Sam and Claire – im leaving them alone coz wen my friends come over I know I want my space with them, but it still feels like im getting pushed out of the loop – they do stuff without tellin me like organising goin to the theatre on a date i cant make. Wen stu found out these things, he used 2 tell me straightaway. Now its like it doesnt matter. Maybe gettin way to paranoid. Maybe not.

Hmmm I feel so alone right now 🙁