Life… Oh Life!

So now i’m not AS upset as the weekend. Today has been my last day off from work… Im returning tomoro and have some good news! My Boss, Sarah has been away for 8 weeks now, meaning i’ve been running the place with no extra perks but she said that she’ll be back in at least 4 weeks woop woop!!! Canne wait now… Still gunna ask for some extra money tomoro as have been working my ass off for it!

So tonight was firework night and me and Stu were planning to do summit but that didnt happen. I met Hayley for lunch and we chatted loads bout everything which was really nice. We’re planning to do summit every friday night, as mates to keep us really close 🙂 I have decided that the only way that this ‘Stu’ thing is gunna get outta my head is to keep myself occupied. So me and Stu met to go in town and spend some time together. I got really annoyed coz he was just on his phone texting Sam all the time. Pisses me off coz I know they;re in love yeah but I dont wanna be reminded that i have no-one all the time. So we got some dinner and then told me that they were doin summit later with 2 of our other mates. I was like thanks….. if you cast ur mind back I asked you to do summit on Monday night hence thats why I bought Sparklers… Grr!!! But I went to see Scott who was soooo nice today!!! Man, Im so smitten with him, if only I could have him!!!!

So tonight I went for a mile walk and half way round i was in tears, realising what i’ve lost and how I’ll never meet someone new but then the other half was like ‘fck it, I can find another person as good as Stu if not better’ and then a really excellent tune came on – Trouble by Pink which has kick ass attitude and for the first time since all this has started I have taken control of the feelings. I went back home and Sam was there but I didnt care. I spent the night with them and my other friend Kayleigh watching the fireworks and not caring. He’s really nice but he’s got summit I havent and I dont like it. Atm, they’re next door in Stus room and yeah Im jealous and have cranked the music up so I cant hear anything but I’m definately going to find me a decent man.

All I need now is 1….. Any1?! 🙂