Back…. Scott…..

Hey Guys,

Dunno if you still glance over my diary but im back. Im sorry that i left without saying bye. So its been near enough a year now. Things have changed quite a bit. I no longer work for McDonalds (Yay!!!) I have a new profession of working in Human Resources for the Jurys Inn hotel chain which is cool.

Me and Stu have finished now. I want it to be for good but a little voice in my head tells me mixed thoughts. We have only split last week, after nearly 2 years together. He wouldnt let me be me, would tell me wat to do and i felt suffocated within the relationship. We still live together but im thinking now, that it might not be the best thing to do. Katie Rena, my best mate, has decided that she wants us 2 to move in together which wud be so much fun. And we wud laugh and cry together all the time!

So anyways, there’s this new boy that I REALLY like. I dont even know him! He works at a coffee house and…. Well i’ll explain:

So me and Hayley decided to take a trip into town the other week as we were bored. So its a busy saturday and this coffee place is packed. This guy is laughing, joking and singin. I know he’s gay as my friend knows his ex. So he catches my attention. Me and hayles are messing around and im tryin to put on a ‘im not watchin you but secretly i am’ kinda status. So we get to the till and he’s really cheerful and happy, god knows wat about but hes just really flirty. And we’re messing around and he’s laughing and we’re doing the same back. So ever since ive had this thing for him.
So on friday, i needed a drink and wanted 2 maybe see him again, i had the idea of an iced drink in my mind all day! So i get there and he’s on the coffee machine, working on it not literally on it! He looks at me and smiles a GORGEOUS smile. I get MASSIVE butterflys in my stomach! I have to change my order just so he gets to speak 2 me…sad eh?
And then on saturday I was in town again and wanted 2 c if i could maybe intrest him 🙂 So i went in and couldnt see him, was on the verge of walkin out when he came down the stairs! Jumped straight back into the queue! He was cleaning tables. So i got my drink and he spoke 2 me! He asked if i was ok!! I know its not much but the butterflies came again 🙂 So he then started kinda flirting, everytime he walked past i would smile!

I really wanted to give him my number, and this is the first time i have done something like this! I just couldnt. So i sat outside and he followed, cleaning the tables outside. My friend Kayla came over and we were talking and I explained and she grabbed the paper with my number on it and went to give it to him. She then rang me and told me that she had given it to him! I was so happy. I got straight on the phone to Hayley and told her the events. She then told me that she thought he had liked me the first time as he kept looking at me!

And here i sit, 36 hours on and still no word. I dont think that he will call or text which makes me a little depressed. Keep telling myself that there are others out there but hey, so im a lil sad!

Ive fallen in love with a song called ‘My skin’ by Natalie Merchant. It was on hollyoaks on thursday, is a really saddening and slow song, sounds a little bit like the NSPCC advert but I love it! I just wanna drive with it on, chills me out.

So i need your help! Do i go and see Scott again in work? If so how long do i leave it? Argh! Thanks