So wat is going on now?!…….

Well last night, after I came off line, I didnt get to sleep to bout 3 a.m. I dunno why, but just couldnt. So, to consume time, i looked at my old phone which was lying around. I just started to take the songs which I forgot about but then it came to the messages.

Well, going through them made me fell really upset. Nearly every message was from him, but this was before we argued or got annoyed with each other. Every message contained at least 1 compliment and loads of kisses and I mean every message. It just made me want those days back, wen there was no arguments and that we were so happy all the time, i really dont know how or wen it changed. We used to text each other REALLY long messages in the mornin as we used to opposite shifts, but these would contain millions of complimnets. Those still exist but he sends them so rarely now.

I dunno, sometimes I just feel that he doesnt care and cant be bothered to make an effort. Just wish I had the bottle to speak 2 him about it.

We went for a walk 2day, round saltram, like a big nature reserve/country park, took us an hour and a half so killed a bit of time. I tried to tell him about the messages but he just passed it off. He just aked if ‘it was before we were going out?’ and that was it. Tomorow I’ve got work at 5.30am and am meant to finish at 2.30am (VERY long day!) but I said I’d stay on so that I got to see him. But he got a call from work and agreed 2 work at another store so that annoyed me.

We went window shopping for house things 2day as well, tryin 2 find the cheapest things which was quite cool.

He’s gone out again tonight to celebrate a colleagues leaving party. Great, and we’re meant to be saving money?! ARGGHHHHHH!!!!!

Just dont think I’m his Number 1 priority at the moment

P.s – rang the estate agent and the ball is rolling – the referencing has begun woohoo!