This Moment Brought to You by God

I’m sort of a depressive person and I’m sorry to say it, but part of me thinks that I sometimes LIKE being sort of a depressive person… maybe because I can get really fast and worked up and go go go and being depressive slows me down from time to time.  It makes me actually slow down enough to experience things and if I didn’t get depressive I might let everything pass me by (or more aptly described, I might pass everything by without noticing it).  So maybe my depressive-ness leads me to be unhappy from time to time, but it also leads me to notice, evaluate and analyze at its best.  The problems only come when it goes over the edge and descends into misery.

So, today, I had to work in the morning at Sbux but only from 4:45am – 9:15am and then I was off.  I didn’t have to work at the law office so the rest of the day was mine.  I came home and did some online stuff (bill paying, ordering prescription refills, stuff like that).  Then I cleaned the house then took a shower then went and got a manicure and pedicure — ** ahhhhhhh ** —  🙂  After that I headed over to the grocery store.

Now, it was REALLY hot today and we don’t have a working air conditioner.  Our condo has central air but it broke down a couple years ago and we never got it fixed.  I kept putting it off because our electric bill is so much cheaper if we avoid using the air plus once we put it on, we never want to turn it off again so we avoid getting all that nice fresh air which is in plentiful supply at night when we use the fans.  Also, it is so much more environmentally correct to use the fans, so I just haven’t bothered with getting the central air fixed.  Cleaning the house with no AC was just not that big a problem, the fans were set and I wore shorts and a tank top then showered afterwards.  The nail place was well air-conditioned as was the grocery store but while I was getting my manicure, we got a rain storm anyway.

It must have rained more heavily slightly north of the nail salon because when I left there and drove north toward the grocery store, I saw all the signs of there having been a big rain.  The best part, though, was the scent… that scent of freshly cleansed air.  Maybe it’s the ions, I don’t know… but the air smelled so good.  The temperature had dropped a bit and this nicely humid (not muggy) air drifted around me in the car.  I just breathed it in and thought about how wonderful it was to have the afternoon off, to have just gotten my nails done and to have money to buy groceries and a home to take them to and I thought… “This moment brought to you by the Triune God… by Jesus who forgives you for your sins and to give you eternal life so you don’t have to worry about tomorrow, and by the Holy Spirit who enables you to appreciate all these things, and by God, the Father, who created it all.”  I heard it in my mind, like an announcer’s voice in a commercial LOL and I breathed it all in even more deeply because I DO love God so much and I appreciate what He’s given me and continues to give me.

I didn’t feel particularly happy… not that ecstatic feeling that I’ve gotten from time to time when I’ve related to Him, but I certainly felt peace.  There was a peace and relaxation that I don’t often feel.  Ahhhhh (again).