Serious Concerns

So much to do today… opened this AM (of course) at Sbux, then got my nails done for my trip to see my brother (tomorrow).  After that I stopped at home to do a few things, then off to the high school for my son’s annual goals conference. (He gets a special ed conference due to his diabetes.)  The conference was great. They said wonderful things about him so I’m pretty happy.  After that I had to get him ready for a little trip he’s taking with my son-in-law to an amusement park in Ohio for their media day.  They finally took off at about 3pm and I ran off to the store to buy a couple of rain ponchos for my daughter and myself because my brother tells me he’s going to take us horseback riding in the Shenandoah Mountains (which will be quite cool).  I promised myself that I would go horseback riding when I got down to 150 lbs.  Here I am at 128 and never did it so I’m glad I’m finally going to get a chance.  I also bought a new pair of jeans on sale because mine got a little too big (or, actually, I got a little too small for them) and I got Seinfeld, season IV for my husband.  I packed (except for a small load of wash) and now, finally, I’m relaxing.  I am SOOOO beat.

I am looking forward to sipping some wine and watching LOST tonight.  I’m hoping my husband can be convinced to run my small load of clothes down to the washing machine in the basement.  I’m two lazy to go down two flights of stairs. Besides I want to wash what I have on right now and am definitely too lazy to change.  It would be easier to shower and just give him this stuff then sit around in my robe.  I’ll try to convince him.

Soooo… I’m wondering if I need to have my psycho drugs switched.  When I really face it, I’m beginning to wonder if the antidepressants are just not working right.  Truly, I have to admit, I am seriously having worse emotional problems than I’ve had in years.  The busy-ness is good for me because it keeps me from thinking, but even a few minutes without motion and I’m sunk into terrible realms of thought.  It is not visible to my customers or my bosses or even co-workers… but inside, I’m a mess.  I’m not even sure I can think straight at this point.  Maybe too much caffeine… maybe too little sleep.  I don’t know.