Do I Go Alone or Do I Stay Home??????

So I wrote that last entry while I was at work. I feel a little guilty
about that but it only took me 10 minutes or less. I was on hold for
about thirty minutes collectively with this stupid phone problem we’re
having at the office and just sitting there was driving me crazy. I
logged into OD and caught up w/everybody and left notes and was out of
things to do so wrote an entry. It took so much effort and time but I
finally got the two different companies to resolve our phone problem.
What a pain in the butt.

I realized that I needed to do
something besides just wait and focus on the phone issue because I was
getting so stressed over this one thing and felt like I was getting
ready to cuss and yell and cry. I told myself, “It’s just a phone
problem… settle down.” Then I started thinking about my dad character
(in my Muffet diary/book) and realized I needed to give myself some
good advice so put my attention elsewhere. The stress isn’t good for me
and it’s extremely unpleasant to experience. Knowing that it’s not good
for me physically isn’t a big deterrent because the spoiled upset
depressed kid in me just says, “Good.. let it KILL me… I don’t care if
I have a short life!” But I DO care if I have a miserable life no
matter how short it is and THAT’S what makes me spring into action.

That’s
how I ended up quitting smoking back in 1987. I realized smoking wasn’t
going to kill me. It was, instead, going to make my life completely
sick and miserable. Somehow that philosophy made it so I didn’t smoke
any more. Death would have been preferable to that chronic sickness I
wrestled.

Well, enough of that…

I now face a new
dilemma/decision. Bruce Springsteen in coming and tickets go on sale
tomorrow. They’re horrendously expensive… $75 and $85. My husband is
apathetic about it and at this price I’d just as soon go alone SO, do I
buy one or not? Now, I’m one of those kind of people who have no
problem doing stuff alone. I go to movies alone all the time and really
enjoy it. I’m sure I’d have a fine time seeing Springsteen on my own.
I’m so tempted to go see him. He’s playing at my very favorite venue.
And he’s playing solo acoustic *sigh* I just don’t know what to do. I
hate to spend the money and what if it feels different going to a
concert than to a movie… what if I feel like a big loser sitting there
alone? I can’t decide but I have less than 20 to figure out the answer
for me. Any suggestions?