It’s like hitting your head on the wall ……

It hurts your head but you keeping doing it anyway. That’s what I feel my life is like. I’m just going to continue going in circles for the rest of my life. I know I should just move on and forget Marco and I know nothing good is going to happen yet I hold out hope. he is not helping matters by hugging me and flirting with me. He did get me a Christmas gift mind you I did say to him you got me a gift he could have said no. He also came out to he karaoke bar for my birthday. I want to know what his game is because it really seems like he likes me. I mean I could go on like this for days trying to figure out what he is doing and still have no clue. Also the big kicker is he owns me nothing no explanation because I’m nothing to him. Just a measly friend who has a crush on him. I’ve been trying to go on dating sites and meet guys but I guess I’m just really picky lol. The guys I like don’t like me or are unavailable and the guys that like me are either 40 years old (gross) or I’m not interested. I guess being in a relationship is not in the cards for me. I should just bow out gracefully.

later Days