Machine Gun

 I asked someone out on a date tonight. She said "yes". I am apprehensive about it. Scared, actually. Only because I’m unsure about logistics and whatnot. I am scared something could happen, but at the same time, nothing could take off from it due to things. Mainly, I’m worried about the things I do. I’m worried it would turn her off. She knows some things about me, and I’m afraid if she knew mostly everything, that it wouldn’t be worth it to her. I didn’t really feel this way about the other one because I knew she’d understand and would get it. But I don’t know. I’m worried. I know I’m not supposed to be perfect, but I feel like I’m on the opposite end of that spectrum. 

I don’t know. I’m over thinking. I’m also thinking of grad school, which I would have to move out of state. That would be in like a year and a half, but I’m feeling like what’s the point of starting anything if I’ll only leave. If I do leave. I could fail miserably and not go anywhere in life. No one could take me. I’d have to work at fucking Ross forever. 

Ugh.

I’m going to sleep soon. I’m meeting with my friend tomorrow. We’re going to go see all five Die Hard films. Fun.