the beat, relentlessly going on.

Okay.  Why the feeling of burnout?  Did those two weeks of nothing mean nothing?

Since Monday, about once a day I have had the feeling of "AAAAAAAAAAAUUUUU *gasp* AAAUUUUUUUGGGGHHHH!!!"

Or, in other words, the feeling that I would like to stay in bed with the covers over my head.

Hmm.

Good thing life doesn’t depend on my feelings.

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I’m in the office.  I just had a long talk with a mom and daughter at the window.  I see them around a lot – the daughter plays violin and the mother is one of those music moms who generally makes herself useful at the school – but I always, always get the daughter’s name wrong.  Sheesh.

Before they came up to chat, a different mom came up to remind me that in the fall, she had wanted her daughter to have lessons with me, but unfortunately they had already registered her with another teacher.  I’m not the sort to wiggle my eyebrows and suggest that people switch to me.  I like people to make that decision themselves.  Anyhoo, back in the fall she had said, "But my niece – she might like to have lessons with you in the new year … "  And so tonight, she signed up her niece, and we’re starting on Wednesday.

Tonight I had my first lesson with a 4-year-old (well. almost 5, as he told me importantly).  I think that is officially the youngest person I’ve taught piano to.  He was asleep when he came, in his father’s arms, and we gently woke him, and he looked around in bewilderment and annoyance.  He had been ice-skating.  He was zonked.  Slowly I drew him to the piano and started with finger numbers …

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I wanna go ice-skating.

Where are those skates of mine, anyway?  Probably languishing in the closet in my old room in my parents’ house.

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I’m going to make a cake tonight.  For tomorrow’s family gathering.

Which will happen after a chamber music workshop, in which my chamber group will make its debut.

Which will happen after we have a last-minute emergency rehearsal to solidify a few points.  And all the lessons I’m teaching tomorrow.  Weeeee!  Suddenly Saturday is a full day.

I wonder if it will really snow again tonight, like people are predicting.  I wouldn’t mind.  Really.

So much not being said.