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The numbness behind my eyes
The desire to just sit and stare
The urgency to do nothing
The silent screams for attention
The guilt swelling up in my throat
The hopelessness tearing apart my stomach
The things I will never say
The longing for a happier time
The questions running through my mind
The possible ways this could all end
The plans to make everyone else hurt
The pain somewhere deep and unreachable
The scars on my body
The scars in my mind
The sob I can’t hold back
The plot to steal back my life
The girl I couldn’t get
The fight I want to pick
The secrets I want to spill
The will to take the abuse
The temptation to walk away
The way to end it all
The fear holding me back
The what?