10/13/2013

I finally figured out how to write in my OD from my computer (I fixed the problem I was having) and now I don’t know where to start with everything…

We still have our 9 year old niece living with us. It’s a lot different than I thought it was going to be. More expensive than I thought too. Our savings seems to be dropping and things have been coming up and I am trying SO hard not to dip into our savings for our trip for next year. I’ve even cashed in savings bonds and now those are not amounting to much so they wouldn’t be worth cashing in anymore. But I am bound and freaking determined to go on our vacation next year because we DESPIRATELY need to get away after all of this crap going on with his sister…

She was in in-patient treatment and got kicked out 2 days before she was supposed to be released. On Monday we find out if this will all go to court or not. I hope it does because then she will be on a time limit and if she messes up again then Carissa will be placed in a permanent home. (Most likely with us) So far though she says she is doing well. I made pancakes yesterday (even after all she has said and done) and brought them to her because if she is going to try then we will support that. This has all been very stressful though and she has said a lot of things that we will not forget.

We have had to buy a lot of clothes for Carissa because the stuff she has does not fit her. I am still trying to go through what looks like it doesn’t fit and get rid of it to see where we are with that. She might need a little more long sleeves shirts and more winter pajamas. We already bought so much, her mom likes to put her in clothes that are too small for her. She’s 9 years old and her mom is putting her into a 10/12 when she is really a 14/16 and when her mom was in treatment she gave Carissa a shirt (from someone who most likely left it there) and I asked Carissa if it fit her and she said “No but when I lose weight it will.” this child is 9 years old and doesn’t need to be worrying about that. So I am waiting to see if she wears it because if it doesn’t fit I am not keeping it. Besides I think it’s a medium (which is 7/8) so that wouldn’t fit her anyways… Guess we will see but I am ready for this to all be over and to have a normal life again and I know my husband is too.

I bought Christmas presents for the kids already and got one for Carissa for Christmas and one for her birthday. (Just like in the past-her birthday is on Christmas) and I got more for Madison just like in the past and Paul said I should get more for Carissa. I told him that her mom will get stuff for her from the salvation Army like always in the past and how is it fair if Carissa get’s a bunch from everyone else and Madison doesn’t. This has always been the way it has been in the past and it’s not fair if Carissa get’s a lot from her mom and then a lot from us… I told Paul that if Carissa doesn’t get anything from her mom then we will get her more… he’s not understanding where I am coming from. I am trying to be fair cause how is it fair that Carissa and Madison open a ton of presents from us (well not a ton but you know) and then Carissa’s mom comes over and Carissa opens a bunch more in front of Madison??? I am also contemplating whether or not to put Carissa in our Christmas card picture this year…