Bottled Up

 So tonight I finally exploded! Things have been SO EXTREMELY stressful that I just couldn’t take it anymore and I just lost it! Not only have we been helping his grandma move in here but we had to shell out $217 to help his sister get her electricity turned back on! We are not made of money & people seem to think we are. Yesterday my husband went to Target & apparently his sister went with and he got her toilet paper, head ache medicine & some shampoo oh but not just an kind of shampoo… Herbal Essence the kind that costed $2.50 cause. She just can’t get the cheap stuff! That’s when I lost it and started going upstairs with my husband but before I did I told my mother in law that I hate he child! Course I didn’t really mean it I was just pissed off! Pissed off at the fact that this girl is not looking for a job & now has to be bailed out cause she can’t pay her bills when she should have been looking for a job this entire time! We can’t help her out anymore. Anyways that was what broke me. I told him we were going broke & his grandma said "I’m going broke.". Well so are we helping everyone. Then his mom tried to drag my family into it saying her family isn’t the only one with problems, um hello I know that I never said my family didn’t have problems but leave them out of this! His mom said she would just move out so she didn’t have to deal with the stresses of this stuff. We later talked a little and I tried to make things better and told her I don’t hate her child just frustrated at the situation. I know words are like knives but you know what I feel SO much better exploding. Things here as weird now but I hope they eventually go back to normal. I told her that things bottle up & I explode and she told me I need to let the old stuff go. Well I try to but then new stuff get’s piled on so the old stuff comes back and it all get’s to be too much! 

That’s the latest anyways… We get to go to Hawaii soon and unfortunately she is going with us but maybe things will be ok by then & we can just relax & have a good time!