11/13/2011

I went back to David’s Bridal and got a different dress. After I did that I had a dream that night about walking towards my husband in it. I also know what I want to do now as far as ceremony decoratoins. It’s nice that it all fell into place

I am getting SO sick and tired of the whole competition thing with his sister and her kid. I get SO annoyed cause that little girl is SO fucking spoiled and we can thank her mom, his grandparents and his mom for that. If she doesn’t get her way she cries until she eventually does. It makes me want to spoil Madison even more and give her even more. Paul doesn’t want me to do that but I can’t help it! I can’t wait to look for another job and get more hours so I can make more money so we can do more. I still want to go to Hawaii and I fear that the ticket prices have only gone up since the last time I looked   Today we went to the park and she said to Madison "I guess you don’t want to have fun" or something along those lines and I told her that she doesn’t need to say that to Madison just cause Madison didn’t want to do something. I told her that-that’s being a bully, and then I told her that if they can’t behave then I will put them in a time out and she said "Oh I want to go in a timeout." So I got pissed and told her that she doesn’t need to talk to me like that and that I wasn’t afraid to spank her in front of the people at the park and then I threatened to take her Christmas stuff back and that’s when she was like "Nooooo." course the little brat says that when you threaten to take something away from her. His mom wants to get this barbie house thing for her, samee thing I got Madison and it’s kind of annoying! UGH

I figured out what my problem is… We live too close to family! I think that-that’s why I was happier while we lived in Texas. I’m stressed out and at least I don’t eat when I’m stressed anymore, since I lost weight   I haven’t been feeling very good today…

So I showed Paul the first dress I bought since I didn’t get it and he liked it. Hopefully I’ll be breath taking in the one I did get 🙂   Gonna post a picture of the first dress now…

P.S> I just paid off the last of my ring 🙂  feels VERY good!!!