The Sex of the baby is…

UNKNOWN!!! The baby had the umbilical cord in the way & it’s hand… so any guesses as to what we are having??? This is what people think so far

Boy                               Girl
My Aunt Misty                             My Mom
My Grandpa                                 Emily (my 5 year old cousin)
Paul (my mom’s bf)                       Lynne (my mother-in-law)
Grandma Green (dad’s side)

Anyone wanna add??? Let me know & I will add your name to the list! The guy doing the ultrasound said that he thinks it might be a girl but he was making a guess. There was no signs of ovaries or testicals (which I thought happens around the 5th month so maybe we were early… maybe they will develop now cause I am 20 weeks as of Friday. (weird huh… seems like yesterday I was saying I was pregnant)

Ok so things here in Iowa have been fine, having a great time with my crazy mommy (who is rubbing my belly ALL the time and kissing it… gotta love her) & my grandparents who have been taking us out to dinner every night since we got here. I know who my MAIN family is because they are the ones who have always been there, so this pisses me off….

I have 2 half sisters, Jenny & Liz both older than I am… I don’t talk to them at all really unless THEY CALL ME cause I am SUPER bad at calling anyone unless it’s Paul or my mom so anyways I guess I am STUCK ON MYSELF…. WHAT THE HELL IS THAT???? Explain that to me… I am HAPPY IN MY MARRIAGE AND LIFE so that makes me stuck on myself??? I’m sorry I got out of this shitty town cause my dad took me away & because of it I have a better life. I would have been messed up and not known what was good for me & would have settled probably if I didn’t get taken away. Although I have ALWAYS had a good head on my shoulders cause I didn’t wanna end up like them. Jenny has a SHITTY and I mean SHITTY boyfriend. He thinks every girl in my family is easy & he can have any one of us including my mom. WRONG & I don’t wanna hang out with Jenny if her bf is gonna stare at me like freaking eye candy cause the first bad thing that comes outta his mouth about it he WILL get PUNCHED by ME or Paul!!! I work too DAMN hard to get treated like that. I worked my ASS off to get where I am now. I KNOW I have a good life and husband & she is just jealous. Liz is fine but Jenny is the one who said that about me. I come yes mostly to see my mom and grandparents cause that is who I am close to. I in NO WAY think I am better than anyone. I just made my life better &  I am happy at the outcome. I GRADUATED unlike her & she had 4 kids, 2 taken away. I have a good life & I don’t ask for help cause I’m a stubborn ass & I PUSH to better myself cause I don’t wanna end up with money issues like my family has had all my life so I try not to. UGH I am SOOOO irritated at her I could scream!!! She’s afraid of being alone & me… I don’t settle for some chump who pushes me around. I’m VERY picky when it comes to my men & I was just LUCKY AS HELL that Paul came into my life. He had everything I want & STILL DOES!!! There is NO WAY I am letting him go nor do I want to. 3 years & going strong and I am still happy with a baby on the way. We both work hard because we have had it tough & we freaking deserve to be happy! I know I have said that before & I will keep saying it. We don’t settle & we fight to better ourselves. Yes shit happens & it SUCKS & life get’s stressful but we make it through… hell look at the year he was in Iraq wasn’t that hard enough? I KNOW there will be trying times but that’s what it’s all about & if you can make it through well hell that says enough.

Anyways I’m off to bed. I was just pissed off & told Paul I was going to write in my online diary! Thanks for listening! Until next time

P.S. In One hour Paul & I will be together for 3 beautiful years! YAY!!!