Out w the old, in with the new

 New year 

 
So the end of the year has not been too bad. I’ve been spending a lot if time w my mom which is good. 
 
I had dinner w my gma and mom, than one w her bf and her at a Chinese food restaurant and than last night we ate the turkey and all that finally!’ That was my favourite although I didn’t eat too much because I didn’t wanna be all gross for the three hour play!!
 
 
My year wasn’t that great I suffered a lot of loss.
Sort of copying Thatlittlebitch here 😉
Lost my 
Boyfriend in a terrible secret he was still married and abandoned me brutally in October 
Lost a part of myself in that relationship 
Lost a good "friend" who at this time was supportive but than freaked out on me badly deeply insulting me
Lost another guy who was also very emotionally supportive of me around this time who I was casually seeing
Lost my old therapist after she really let me down with not being there for m, if known her for a year and a half and developed a lot of trust with her so it was disappointing when I realized she wasn’t the right fit 
Got accepted for school, dropped out a week in. (Wrong program and timing) although I am proud I applied and got accepted 
Drifted away from another good friend  I’ve known since grade one in the summer..
Lost, cut off another boy crazy friend 
I am retiring from my speaking job in the new year and staying on Unofficially possibly….
Lost old caseworker 
 
I gained a lot of new as well though 
A new therapist who has been helping me ALOT
New better case worker 
A new friend who I spent my bday with and a few other fun things 
I moved closer to the city, even though I hate the building I like a the area better 
I am a lot smarter, stronger and tougher 
Started on vitamins and supplements for my mental health 
 
 
I think that it will get better next year with changes and new things and people. I know myself better, I have more standards for myself and I know what I want. 
 
I am less willing to throw myself into a job, relationship or situation without protecting myself and assessing the situation.!
 
I am able to spend more time on my own, not so afraid to be alone. 
 
 
Time really does fly. 
 
I hope this year I can find a stable job and meet new people. Maybe meet a guy but I dunno I am still torn apart from stupid O that my trust levels are very low. Less naive, less willing to put up with bullshit. I wanna evaluate my patterns more closely and try to stop going for bad boys and expect them to change. Take things slower, investigate more. I really want a more serious relationship now than ever I just find these flings are empty and don’t get me anywhere. 
 
I want stability, reliability consistency. I find it keeps me focused on other things. 
 
Out with the old
In with the new! 
 
Bring it 2014!