He’s married?!!?!? Living a double life……

 So on Saturday night I texted O he said he was comming back on Saturday from NY, this chick starts texting back saying I have the wrong number. Than I say no because the answering machine says it’s someone else. 

 Forgive the typos my auto correct fucks things up and doesn’t put the right words…..
 
Anyways she calls to "prove" that it’s a wrong number. I tell her I am still not convinced anyways she was yelling at me and I said the answering machine is a guy so I don’t think so I ask her why she is so angry if it’s the wrong number. 
 
And dun da da da! She says because I am his wife!!!!!!!
 
I said he lied to me which he did and said he was divorced and I met the family (which I did) anyways she started cussing me out and alternating between pleading me to leave her husband alone to asking what he was doing while he was here in Canada. 
 
Anyways I was shocked and upset and than he came on three way and denied knowing who the fuck I was sort of and she kept saying loose the number the coward hardly had a word to say but started yelling at ME?!!!i just said this is a very cruel and mean thing to do I wasn’t about to loose my cool or cry on the phone with him hearing me I didn’t wanna give either one the benefit of my feelings. I said it as coldly and calmly as possible at the end than hung up whole the woman is still trying to cuss me out and act all tough. 
 
Anyways she went on and on about what a wonderful father and husband he is and a beautiful heart blah blah blah…. Save it. 
 
I said he’s not and keep him I don’t want him at the end of it all. 
 
And I don’t but it doesn’t make it hurt any less. We were on and off for 9 months and it was rough. It was unhealthy and abusive but I had and have strong feelings for him because of how he manipulated me and lied. But I was trying to break up anyways. I met his brothers and his sisters and his friends. 
 
I had to block the number HIS number that she was calling from and for some reason he no longer had that phone. She called about 6 times and left me ranting and raving voicemails about me being dumb bitch and that she knew about me the whole time and I got played and all this shit it was just immature and I didn’t wanna sink down to that level anymore. It was hurtful too even though she doesn’t know me and she is basically getting played too but with burdens on him on top of that. 
 
Anyways it shocked me and I wish I didn’t have to find out this way but it is what it is I guess… 
 
I’m just trying to see him for what he is a scrub a damaged tortured insecure little boy, who pretends to be a man but it’s all just a mirage. Fake smoke and mirrors because he’s not and never will be all he says mad pretends to be. 
 
I am sick of feeling hurt by this guy. He pushes and pulls and I’m better off alone. Too much energy was spent on this person who wasn’t worth it. 
 
It’s hard on the other hand because the level of trust I put into him and him saying he loved me and cared about me seemed so real.
 
I feel used and hurt and mostly disgusted by it all.
 
Especially when on the phone he was a stranger to me just so he could get what he wanted which is back in his wife’s good books. She seems like a bitch anyways but she’s got a lot to loose to unblind herself from his brainwashing and control and lies deceit and manipulation I feel bad for his kids because I know how it feels to be a child with a scumbag cheater as a dad who plays and hurts people and woman because they are so selfish
 
It’s hard though when "THAT" was the only "true" emotional connection I had to anyone lately. Bullshit. It was a "friendship" as well….blah makes me sick. 
 
Anyways Karma will get him anyways. 
 
I am slowly trying to move forward from it all….