spending too mch time on this

spending too much time dealing, thinking and breathing my trauma. i finally started crying this morning because i just cant handle it anymore. I need to put it in a box now. I am terrified to go to sleep and did not sleep last night, (partially because of withdrawl from medication)

keeping myself busy. i guess. cant dwell too much on things really. im reading too much self help to i think.i want to move on with my life somewhat. live for me not him or them

thats possible right? everything in my life just seems so scary. i am living in fear and a lot of it is fear based. i am digging myself out of it again.

i hate feeling down and depressed i just want some distance from it all.