so i pretty much have my own fucking apartment!

so went for the interview today and its pretty much in the bag baby! I am pretty excited about it all, nervous because I have never lived on my own before and I mean I havent been inside the place yet but Ive seen the outside and its brand new and its way closer to ammenities. its lower rent than right now and its a one bedroom in a safe, secure building. its more than what i wanted really. its way better than living with my two roomates right now. one is really starting to piss me off.

she picks apart everything i say. i will say something scared the hell out of me and she will say something in the nature of oh so where did the hell go or something really stupid and literal, i laugh and pretty much say why do you have to be so literal. the laugh is from exhaustion of her criticalness and nitpickyness. its difficult to keep a long conversation up with her without her trying to pick apart the words,expressions or anything I say. she says someone has to tease you, and its all fun. but i know its not its her hidden anger. she does it to other people too and it bothers the fuck out of other people too. she makes nasty snarky comments for no apparent reason other than she is unhappy with her life and she takes it out on other people. and shes well aware of this too. but basically i am at the point where i have risen about it and can seperate myself from what she says because i know her pattern now. shes drama drama drama. i hear her crying hysterically,i hear her yelling, i hear her bitching a lot of time. its a landmine infected area dealing with her. she can be a great person some of the time. i think i would like her better if i did not live with her. way too emotionally immature for me to deal with. i tried my best and now its just time to bide my time and not let it bug me. its about her not me.

anyways. happy v day.

things I am greatful for

1. that my interview went so well

2. i found out about about a great opportunity for women today!

3. caught up with a few old friends yesterday

4. i feel loved

5. made some art today.

6. my health

7. the money that i do have!

8. the support i have

9. my eloquentness

10. the gym across the condo 🙂