i let myself down

let some people kick me when i was down

expect them to stay around

than they leave and they are no where to be found

hanging out with down ass chicks

and fucked up guys

try to relate and melt into them

but its apparent they are not the ones who matter

when shit goes down

they point fingers and scatter

its lonely when you can look someone in the eye

and they can just lie

its sad when you ask someone to promise you something

already knowing they wont folow it through

but they are all you got

that they talk up a storm

when you see them you feel all warm

but they arent the ones thatll be there when you lost it all

that the second you give them enough they wont think theyll have to give it back

they are the main source of your suffering

they start teaching you that the person you should hate the most is you

fucked up shit you do

when your not even the one

you dont come close to the person you want to give your heart to

you dont know why you allow them to treat you that way

but still you stay

now yoor suffering an identity crisis because the people you thought were part of you

couldnt be more not your style

its be easier to write them off and never look back

but you always wanna just intrude in their lives again

rob yourself of any closure