Shimmer

 Related to the abuse when I was a kid.

I shimmer I glimmer

But all is not gold

Since a young age 

My soul has been sold

Ill never be the same

Filled up with so much shame

Will take awhile to re learn my pre trauma worth

I was born innocent

Tainted now 

But its never too late……

Having a hard time. Dont know why because most of the time I am feeling pretty good and acting pretty good. But deep down inside I am not doing well. Theres a heavy weight bringing me down. I am a bit depressed. but dont wanna do a damn thing about it for the most part. I know what I have to do but I am not willing to make the change. All I will do is slow down a bit before picking up more speed. But I am left feeling a bit unfufilled at the moment…Hope the light comes back into my spirit soon.