taking time for myself

 One thing I did good at work today: I havent forgot my therapists homework instructions yet! I usually do! lol. Got straight to work and took great initiative in getting all my paper work done. Plus my boss complimented me on my budgeting skills in regards to the grocery shopping I have to d. I was glowing inside. Its the craziest compliment too because I am usually horrible at budgeting so that was a really meaningful compliment to me. I have a really good boss, hes a man which I think makes a difference for the most part. I mean I have had nice female bosses too but usually female bosses can be kind of bitchy. Anytime he wants to give me some constructive critism he always starts with So dont take this as a bad thing I am not angry at you..which I mean is great because I am pretty over sensitve at times coupled with some really insensitive bosses in the past who just kind of yell at you and insult you when you mess up or whatever. So I feel happy with my job.

Oh! and on Facebook today this girl that I know through my dad, (my dad and her mom are longtime friends, plus she lived with my dad for awhile but I know nothing went on because my dad always complained about what a bitch she was to him, long story) she invited me to her bday party downtown next weekend so I am excited! This was a few weeks before when I messaged her on facebook to tell her we should hang out sometime. I only hung out with her once, but shes pretty cool. 

I am not going out tonight. I am staying home so I can calm the fuck down with my drinking and partying. I am lucky that today I could go in at 12 but if not it would have been hangover from hell day Plus I am worried about my job I know I should calm down a bit and get proper sleep and rest so I can do a decent job at work. Its going to catch up to me if I dont slow down now. I am  I friggen ordered a bottle of rum bottle service last night and took one shot of it put it away when I got it out again. smash all on the floor. that wouldnt be so crazy if it hadnt happened to me before when ordering a bottle from bottle service. My friends keep saying its a cheap quality bottle. but i mean thats what happens when a bottle falls to the floor. than I accidently cut my wrist on a piece of glass picking it all up. Glass cuts are the worst I thought it would never stop bleeding. I was scared it was going to look like I was trying to off myself to my mom or at work. I didnt want to put a bandage on it because I think that would make it more obvious. I used to cut myself so it wouldnt be a big surprise to anyone to assume that. But no it doesnt look as bad as it bled before. I think it was a sign to slow down. If that bottle didnt smash maybe I would have like gave myself alcohol poisioning or got a real bad hangover and missed work or something. As if on auto pilot I went out the door to go to a bar. It was rainy and wet out but I kind of liked it. I ordered a beer as well a sandwich and a soup I really wanted a soup in this kind of weather. I rented a movie tonight called Trust it came out recently and I checked the reviews on it and it got really good reviews. Its kind of like a Taken movie but with Clive Owen in it instead of Liam Neison. I have been looking forward to watching it all day. Been thinking about it at work even, trying to imagine what its going to be like. lol

I wish I had normal tv so I could watch Jersey Shore too but I guess I will just have to watch it on the computer.

Well gonna go for now. 

ciao