mistakes

So I fucked up at work the other day. It was a pretty big fuck up I think, but not intentional. I was waiting for a phone call at one of the offices where I have a kitchen. When it rung I expected it to be who I was waiting for instead it was a social worker from a drop in centre. She said that she is looking for this person I will call Nancy Fay, she says shes getting frantic calls from family who havent seen her since December and this is her last known address. I say no, than she describes this woman there to a t, Trans woman, spanish background 28 years old I immediately say yes I saw her, feeling like a hero but than feeling like an idiot because I just broke confidientiality. I wouldnt know nothing about this if I didnt live in group homes myself at times. So I tell her I am not at liberty to say anymore and shouldnt have said anything more. She tells me she will not mention to the family how or who or where she heard she was seen. Dont know if I believe her but I hope shes telling the truth. I tell another social worker today about what happened and he tells me uh oh shouldnt have done that. I see this client all the time and I was kind of on edge today around her knowing that I did something that would really probably piss her off, she prolly didnt want to be found. But yet again I know that I would not of done that if I would have thought it through. I never pick up the phone and this was the first time.

Lately I am on edge and nervous because of summer there are never many if any support workers on duty when I am around. It makes me nervous just in case something I am not qualified to deal with comes up. I was supposed to get some training on what to do in conflict and violent situations but never got that training which sucks.

My job is hard but I feel lucky because I get a lot of positive feed back from the people who live there. Today a woman who gives me a hard time most of the time asked me if my contract was going to be extended after 6 months and when I told her I dont think so she told me that she hopes it gets extended. Things like that make my day. I get these little gems a lot of the time mixed in with them bitching to me about the meals I decide to make and all that and I get corrected by someone it seems like every 5 minutes but I get it in a sense. They are still testing me out I am very fresh blood. But with me being fresh blood I think I bring some change. I like to mix things up and do things differently. Today my cook told me that what I wanted to do hadnt been done before. But I just told her it wouldnt hurt to try something new. So we did it differently.. I think they are a bit weary of change. I like social work and I think after this internship is done I am going to go back to school and finish up my social work degree. I kind of want to work with new immigrants for some reason. I think it is because I am so interested in different cultures and languages and Toronto is full of multi culturism. I have always wanted to learn a new language too. Maybe study a language too.

Anyways that all for today.

ciao