hectic friday

ugh so i am glad i am done for the week. cause today was one shit storm after another. lo

i met my boss at the wrong place and than called her and she wasnt happy that i mixed it all up. but was cool afterwards which was good.

otherwise it was okay but i am having troublle with this powerful position. i am expected to assert authority but at 23 and all of the people under me being at LEAST 20 years older than me at times its vvery difficult. they kept on trying to weasel my age out of me but i dont think it is relevant and i am not giving any leverage. this is weird to say but god do i wish i was older.

i hada conflict with a cook under me today. i could tell right off the bat she was going to be difficult to deal with. otherwise she was okay though. friendly enough. but at the end of the day i asked her to put a coffee pot literally two seconds away from her before i could give her transportation money and she put her hand in my face and refused. i am not a confrontational mean or rude person. i am pretty calm i asked her three times same response. no. its not her kitchen to which i replied yes it is because you are hired as a cook and its her job. no no no. so i finally gave up at that point fuck it. its friday. gave her damn transportation allowance. she said you can complain all you want to your boss about me. i said i dont want to do that. i would rather talk to you about it and that she was being really disrespectful towards me. gave her the transportation she said thanks than left but not before pullling my supervisor aside.

very difficult i do not like telling people what to do i would rather work with people i know she may resent me and i am sorry she feels thats way. i hate being in a position of authority in a lot of ways. i am just not the authortative type. i am not sure how i am going to handle this in the future i think i did the best i could though and i talked to my super later and she wasnt mad at me or anything so thats good she said i dealt with it the best i could. i mean she is a tough cookie and in some ways i envy that because i am tough but just in another way. but at least my super told me that the woman said she knew she was being rude. but fuck i just wanted to get out of there.

go weekend!