I’m Back!

 …and boy has life changed…

Justin came to December to visit for 3 weeks.  He came just before graduation and stayed with my mom until my finals were done so I wouldn’t be distracted.  Didn’t matter…I was distracted KNOWING he was only 3 1/2 hours away instead of 6 TIME ZONES away.  I was already failing biochem…bad.  I got a B on the first exam, and every exam after that was an F.  The final I got way under a 50%.  I had a decision to make: whether or not I was going to walk.  I could either walk, and my whole family is there, and Justin is there, and that way if I graduated…then yay i walked and I graduated…and if I didn’t…I just finish up one more semester and then don’t walk for my ACTUAL graduation.  I decided to walk since Justin said he really wanted to see me walk…that was part of the reason he came before graduation.

So I walked and let myself be somewhat excited, even though I knew I wasn’t going to graduate.  I was happy to be there, to experience it, etc.  Justin kept getting mad at me because I wasn’t all super excited like I should’ve been. He was complaining to my mom, saying I was being all negative.  She told him I wasn’t being negative (I wasn’t. I wasn’t being a downer), but I was just being realistic to myself.  I didn’t want to be all excited and truly expect to graduate and then get a thing saying I didn’t graduate…I’d be devastated.  At least if i kept a cool head, it would be expected, and if i DID find out I graduated..I’d be fricken stoked.

And that’s what happened.

Four days after graduation, Justin was on the phone with my brother giving him relationship advice while I was searching the school website for classes for spring semester. I hadn’t registered so I knew it was going to be a bitch to find open classes.  At least the class I was going to have to retake was open.  I decided to check my assessment, which basically "closes" the options or windows you have yet to fulfill to graduate and leaves open the tabs that you need.  Well I’m paging through and EVERYTHING is closed except one part that says I need 1 credit –which is actually something that I got overridden.  So..technically, I graduated.  I started geeking out, just inside, because I was thinking "WTF happened!??!"  I failed Biochem and that means absolutely no graduation.  I checked my grades, and he must’ve curved them.  I got a D, and while I thought a D wasn’t going to be enough to graduate, my GPA in the major was JUST above what it had to be to graduate.

I jumped out of bed and just started screaming "I GRADUATED! I GRADUATED" jumping up and down ( at 11:00 at night with sleeping roommates upstairs…oops).  I was so freaking ecstatic.  I didn’t tell anyone yet..just sorta told my brother since he was on the phone, but I couldn’t believe it.  It wasn’t quite real yet. I told myself it wouldn’t be real until I received my diploma.  Even when I was moving out 3 weeks later, it didn’t seem real.  I came back to the Milwaukee area, and now live with my dad in the burbs.  It wasn’t until my mom sent me a message saying my diploma arrived in the mail..and it all sank in. 🙂

So now, here I am, with my Bachelors in Microbiology, and unemployed. haha.  I’m looking for jobs, but unfortunately since I have absolutely NO money, I have to limit my jobs to being in the Milwaukee area–which SUCKS because there have been quite a few job postings in Madison and Chicago which are just BARELY out of reach in terms of commuting…but oh well.  I’m looking for a job, for my big girl job and a restaurant job, and hope I can get something soon =/