best week home EVER
Things just seem right. I haven’t felt this good. happy. free. in a long time.
I went home for a few days. Usually this consists of me going home, my parents working…I do fuck all all day, and when it comes to doing dinner together or something, it doesn’t happen because something is always off and we don’t end up eating until 9pm. My dad usually spends more time with his gf, even when I come home, and when I go to my mom’s, my brother is always there and always expecting me to do stuff for him. I end up cleaning up around the house, and not getting much time with my mom 1 on 1.
It didn’t quite go that way this time. I went home late Saturday night. Dad is usually in bed by 11 or 12 at the very latest, but he was up when I got home at about 1:15 am. We stayed out on the deck talking until after 2:30 am. That was amazing. And it was so nice. That in itself was a shocker. The next day we were supposed to go out boating and tubing. We texted the rest of the fam..my bro and Steph. No one could make it out and my dad didn’t really want to go because it was supposed to storm, but we didn’t get to go last time I came up to so he said we would go. We are both glad we did. Though it was overcast, the weather was perfect and we went all the way around Lake Geneva for the first time (~25 miles). We looked at all the big fancy rich houses and talked about what we would or wouldn’t do if we had that much money. It was a very peaceful day. The next day he had to go to work, and I wanted to get some sun since I’m still whiter than snow. I went to Bradford Beach in Milwaukee, laid out in the sun..got a bit burnt, but that was okay, and read my 50 Shades of Grey. Afterwards, I went home to meet dad. We decided to go to the casino. That was a mistake. I told dad I lost $50. I lost more than that but thought it better not to tell him. A good learning experience. Money can go by fast. It wasn’t anything I couldn’t afford losing though. I’ve been working working working the last couple weeks. The next day I went shopping…I did some major damage, but I felt like I deserved it. I bought 2 summer dresses, 2 dress shirts –one black and for work of which I’ve been searching for all over La Crosse for the last 2 weeks and couldn’t find ONE SINGLE BLACK BUTTON UP BLOUSE. I also ended up getting some cute underwear at Charlotte Russe that was 5 for $12 and a couple of cute flowery hair pieces that are/were possibilities for a possible wedding in the future 😉 After shopping, I did dinner with dad and then went back to West Bend that evening to see the other half of my family.
I don’t think I did anything special that night I came back. I talked to mom for an hour or so and that was it. *edit* just kidding! After my mom went to bed, I went to Andrew H’s to hang out. Our nights usually consist of watching a movie, a bit of flirting that ends up in cuddling…but he knows that I’m in the midst of wedding planning so he/we behaved. We watched a movie and then we talked about all the girls in his life in the past couple of years…which led to us talking about who we all had crushes on in high school. We were up until 5:30 am! I did go home with a free bike though. He has an old road bike he got for free and doesn’t need. He gave it to me for free, and all it needs are new tires, and maybe a tune up…which will be worth the money now that gas prices are randomly sky rocketing!!!!!
The next day was a busy day. I drove to Oshkosh to see my cousin, Becca. I was afraid it was going to be awkward, because to be honest, the last couple years have been awkward for me with her. She and I grew up practically like sisters. My parents invited her on most of our family vacations…she went on 3 or 4 with us. I was her maid of honor in her wedding too. Ever since she got married though, things have been different. I think it’s more because we grew into different people. She’s hard to start a conversation with. It wasn’t like that though. We picked up conversation so easily. She told me about how life was with our cousin Rachel living with her, I got to see her baby of 7 months and hold her. She’s so cute! We talked about Mackenna, the rest of the family, my wedding (I didn’t really tell my family about Justin’s and mine little hiccup. I knew we would be okay in the end so didn’t bother telling anyone). It felt good to see her. It made me feel like things will be good from now on between us.
Afterwards I went home and changed. I was going out with Katie and some of her friends. Again, I was semi dreading going out with her because, as much as I love Katie, I really wasn’t sure about her friends. I know who all of them are, but we never spoke in high school and they just seemed like party animals. I was paranoid about them being stuck up and who knows what. Well I got there, and it was semi awkward, but one of them talked to me and asked how I was, asked about Justin, etc. I ended up having to play vball with Katie since they were short, which was fine, but the guys on her team are dicks and I couldn’t play with them in a league the way they play. They’re just all about spiking the ball whenever they touch it. We hung out afterwards though, and her friends were really nice to me and I to them. It turned out to be way better than I expected 🙂 I had such a great night and I wasn’t out too late.
Thursday night I took my mom out for dinner since I didn’t get a chance to give her anything for Mother’s Day. We went somewhere that my brother wouldn’t want to eat…not because we didn’t want him coming, but because my mom never gets to eat anything my brother doesn’t like. Earlier that day, I also bought a bunch of healthy groceries for her. She can’t afford anything my brother WON’T eat and that she WILL eat…she basically has to get whatever he wants and eat it too. SO I bought her a bunch of fruit and veggies, some lean chicken that can be frozen and used whenever she’s ready, some potatoes, and a couple other things….another $50 I wasn’t obligated to spend, but I wanted to. I just hope she doesn’t let it go to waste.
Friday I came back to La Crosse to work. It was a great work night. We were really busy which was a little stressful at one point, but everyone was out by 9:15 which is weird for a Friday night. I got home before 10, another weird thing for a Friday night. It was a good night. Afterwards I went to Jorge’s. We drank wine, watched What’s Your Number which i LOVE!!!, and then had some serious talks about him and his relationships and what he wants to do in terms of certain people in his life. He wanted me to stay over night, but I had to get up in the morning to go see mom. Part of me wanted to. I think he’s really lonely and just likes someone next to him. I’ve never slept with Jorge before though, nor cuddled…Jess has, but I haven’t. I think I was semi afraid of that, even though I have nothing to be worried about. We are good friends and he is gay. I just didn’t feel right about it for some reason.
Today was another great day, but I think I wi
ll post about that tomorrow. This is a long enough entry as it is. But it continues to be great. It’s nice to have a positive entry in here for a change. The only bad parts of the week were that I found out I need new brakes, well pads and rotors, but again…I found a friend who would do the work for me for free 🙂 I’ve been so blessed (usually I’m not a fan of that word because it implies religion, but I do not mean it in that sense..it’s just the right word) to have such great friends and family…this week really showed it 🙂