I feel like writing

But I feel like I have nothing to say.  I want to write…but…what?

I could write about the latest activities, but I’m not really up for it.

The truth is, all I’ve been able to do lately is think about Darlene.  I’ve had 4 dreams in the last 6 days about her, some were good and some were bad, and I’ve woken up once in the middle of the night, wide awake, thinking about her.  Mom told me that I was crying in the middle of the night one night…asked if everything was okay.  I must have been sleep crying because I don’t recall this whatsoever.  She said it happened again 2 days later.  I could tell that time because I woke up with that wore out feeling you get after you cry…and extra sleep in my eyes like when you cry yourself to sleep….except I was never awake when I was crying.

There’s nothing I can do about it though.  I’m not going to tell her.  I can’t really tell anyone.  That’s why I’m here.  I did tell someone but that didn’t go very well.

So here I am I guess.  Maybe that’s what I needed to say.

Otherwise, I have a homework assignment to do tonight for my Geo class of which is 4 weeks long and I haven’t done anything for it yet.  This evening I’ll have to be glued to my computer when we get back from Dad’s and take care of that.

Well I must be going.  I’ll write more next week I’m sure.