2:00 a.m.

I don’t even know anymore. What am I doing? What is anyone doing?

Rob- Me, minus one year to the day. Holds back, holds things inside. Jokes around about his low self esteem, like me. Gets confused when it comes to relationships, like me. Has a great mind but needs to stop being so fu*king stubborn. He’s had a hard life, like me.

Eric- E-Dog- Slow but interesting kid. Good kid. Great when it comes to weed. Funny as hell. Has his share of sh*t to deal with, but I don’t think he fully realizes that his friends are here for him.

Ray- Fu*king herbass. Seems to be trying to copy me, look up to me I suppose. He better stay away from Kim. She doesn’t want it from him, she wants it from me. He doesn’t get certain things sometimes. Has his share of sh*t to deal with, and still really needs to grow up.

Kim- Holds a big place in my heart. Trust. Beauty. Personality. Ability to talk to eachother about private and personal things. She still needs plenty of growing up to do. Definitely a freshman. Her ideas of relationships need to mature. Has had plenty of sh*t to deal with. Very spiritual. That part is pretty fu*ked up, but I absolutely love her.

Joann- Beautiful girl. Too hung up on Rob. It’s a damn shame because she can honestly do better. She has a problem with her self esteem, although by no means should she. She has problems with her mom constantly, and is usually too scared to take a stand for herself. She is also very much a freshman. Amazing girl though.

Michelle- Not much to say. Very pretty. I believe that if the bullsh*t that her parents give her has been going on all her life, that would explain why not much emotion came out of her before. I changed that one to an extent. Great person, just needs to open up and not be so shy.

Julie- A little too much. Great personality. Very close at times. She definitely needs to grow up. She needs to think about her future. She thinks that she can be a thug for life. I know that will never work out.

Jenine- WHAT THE FU*K?!?!?!?!? Ex-girlfriend. Seemed to be a great person at first, but she is manipulative, annoying, VERY immature. I don’t know what is up with her, but I don’t give a sh*t anymore.

Bitchmond- I HATE THIS BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I tried so hard to help her, she showed her appreciation by lying, stealing, manipulating. IT’S SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!! She is most certainly a worthless, WORTHLESS human being.

These are just a few of the many people in my life right now. Love. Hate. Frustration. This is what keeps me going everyday.

I need another cigarette. Then sleep.