1:24 a.m.

I think I’ll go to sleep soon. I’ll have a cigarette before I do.

Fu*k dammit!!!!!!!!!! I don’t want to go down the shore!!!!!!!! I know I’ll be depressed to tears. I just hope I see Kim before I go. I haven’t seen her since after school on 4/20. I need to see her, hold her and kiss her. But why? I wish this were easier. I wish these feelings weren’t so harsh. That song by coldplay just popped into my head. “…. for you- And it was all yellow-blue.” I love that song. They performed it on SNL. I cried. Some sh*tty band is on Conan now. Damn rednecks. I want pizza now. I wish I had the money and means to get some pizza dammit.

I bet Rob is having fun right now. Getting stoned, drunk and laid. Lucky bastard. I’ve gotta listen to the rest of digimortal. If it wasn’t so late, I’d listen to it now. Dammit!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to see Kim!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!!?!??!!??!!?!?!?!

Now there’s an unanswerable question.

I wish life were easier. I wish I didn’t have to worry about school, home, the future, girls.

Goodnight Conan.